And think while waiting.
The actual meeting was nice. We hugged, he bought me something to snack on since I was pretty hungry, and we headed into the parking deck. I knew a bit of what was to be expected ahead of time, but I think my mind tossed most of it out the window by the time we got to his car. I'm pretty sure there was small talk, but I stayed mostly focused on the tasty treat I was nomming away on.
Sitting in the car, a gift was given - a wireless vibrating egg and remote. One that required assembly so far as the batteries needing to be put in it. I was told after putting the batteries in that I would be putting the egg in. I struggled a bit to get it in without taking anything off, but that didn't last long.
"Might as well take the pants off, you don't get to keep them on anyway." Came the statement. A slight whimper was the reply, and the jeans came off. Admittedly, the egg goes in easier without the pants in the way. It was thicker than the rotor I had back home and was making itself well known without even being turned on. The word to remove my panties followed, and I got a towel in exchange.
Silly me, I put the towel -over- my lap, when I learned it was meant to go under me. Once I was settled in, as well as I could possible settle with only a shirt and sneakers on, the little egg whirred into life. Even in the pitch black of the night I was pretty convinced that everyone could see the red on my face, that there was no way I was keeping the calm exterior I was fighting to keep.
After a few moments I'm not even sure I was trying to keep a calm exterior. The egg had multiple settings, and Master seemed to just Love going through them. I tried to focus on anything but the whirring inside me, buildings, signs, other cars, small talk - anything. The entire ride I was afraid that he was going to randomly stop at some store and expect me to get out of the car the way I was. I wasn't even sure I'd be able to convince my legs to move let alone actually convincing the rest of me that I would be willing to go into said store.
Fortunately, we didn't stop anywhere between the airport as his place. Unfortunately, I did have to walk from the car up three flights up steps to his front door. It... wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. Even though I was very wet the egg didn't just randomly fall out as I walked. He had me wait outside the door for a moment, and when the outside light shut off I had a pretty decent idea of what he meant to do.
He gave me something to lean against - him - and he pulled my shirt up over my head, and unsnapped my bra. I thought my whole body had exploded in little tingly sensations, and my mind started reeling with possible things he could have me do from that point. I don't even think I fully registered my admittance into the apartment until the door closed behind us. I took off my socks and shoes and found myself naked walking into a room with two tables. There was more in the room, granted, but at that point I wasn't really focusing on much except a squat table and it's longer brother.
The big table was covered with toys, and I knew that the smaller one was about to be covered in at least one toy. Every light touch Master gave me slipped through my entire body, the egg was still going but there was so much else it was hard to even register it. He slipped a very comfortable blindfold over my eyes and all I had left to focus on were the sensations.
Once Master put the cuffs on my wrists and ankles my world started to blur. The snug feel of the cuffs was amazing, the cool table at my back as long lengths of rope tying my shivering wet body against it, all of it crashed into my mind like a bowling ball. I was helpless, though not completely. My mind understood there were a couple ways I could end the session, and that that was my right - not something to be ashamed of. Even so I was lost in it all.
One flog was snappy and whip-like. The stretchy little bastard stung sharply, but the after effect left my skin tingly. The longer heavier one that followed it was different. The sting wasn't sharp, but the feel of it wasn't ignorable either, following behind it's little brother it took advantage of the shivering flesh. Between the egg inside, the resistance of the ropes, the embarassment of being open wide to someone else's eyes, all those added to the feel of the heavier flog as it came down on my pussy.
I think I could've cum to that.
I know at some point the mask came off. I know at some point I came, was kissed, caressed. Master help my head for me when my neck began to ache, his hands were warm and gentle and the kindnesses that he showed me while he played with me went above anything anyone had ever shown me before.
There was a wand at some point, a pointy wheel at another, and at some point I'm pretty sure I was trying to figure out how I could fit this squat little table into my own luggage. I have no idea how long the session lasted, I can't remember everything that happened, but aside from the nipple clamps I thoroughly enjoyed everything else. The feel of everything - physically, emotionally - it was all I could have ever hoped for.
And afterward, being wrapped up in Master's arms, sipping water, snuggling against his skin, shivering and wet and messy. Soft kisses on my forehead, deft fingers slipping through my hair, I hadn't even experienced something so gentle in any vanilla relationship.
I had known before then how deeply I'd felt about him. No one could have convinced me otherwise, and after the first night at his mercy, lost in his dominance, wrapped in his tender care, I knew. I love him, I trust him, and I know that in all things - in everything that I am, that I tried to hide, that no one else had ever accepted before - that he's there. I don't have to worry about what I say, or how I act, I don't have to be concerned that something will be too far out there, or too different. I can be me. 100% me.
There's no reason for anything to be hidden - I've already been laid bare. <3
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